"Untitled #1"

In the midst of all this mayhem
You release me
My tired mind
And restless bones
Grown tired
Weary really
Rest easy
On your eyes
In your arms
And I remain
Flattered
And simplified
Full of life
Filled with anticipation
To rest quietly
Softly beside you
And your immense beauty
Which is
And will remain
My truth

"Satisfaction"

Join me
Slip inside
Breathe with me
I love feeling you
Your skin
Your stare
Your subtlety
Take your hands
Wrap them around me
Hold on
And feel me
My heart beat
Melting
Into your soul
I crave you
I taste you
As you create a me
I believe in
You soothe me
And I'll save you

"The Disillusion of an Illusion"

Open me up
Stare inside
Can you see
Me either
It's not cold
It's not safe
But you can't turn away
Can you
Is it the light
In me
That makes you believe
Is it the heat
You feel
On my insides
Can I ask
These things
Can I spare you
Can I deny me
Will we face this
Together
Or apart
Where is the truth
I believe
Only in this
I believe in
The sting
The surge
The drop
The dive
The never ending pain
I know I'm breathing
Because my heart beats
It beats
Beatin'
Plainly bruised
Not by fists
Not by feet
But by lips and fingertips
By the touch of your hands
Against my naked skin
Bruised by the sound
Of our laughter
By the lie
You continue
To believe

"The Lovers"

Thousands of miles from here
Two people
Two lovers
Embrace
Two people
So close
Yet not close
Enough
They crave
Unity
They desire
One
They choose
To become
One
With lips
And arms
And feet
And knees
Tangling tongues
And limbs
Bittersweet
And Serene
They create passion
And build
Something beautiful
And yet
We two
Choose not to
Sleepily you
And discretely I
Roll over
To switch out
Our light
In the dark
I settle
And wrestle with my mind
And my desire
I ignore
And want not
And submissively
Close my eyes

"Eternal Flame"

I watch this flame burn
And it ignites my memory
The heat
The light
The calm
Steady
Flicker
I feel your breath
I see your eyes
I hear your heart beat
Comfort
Home
And these thoughts make me burn
I burn to feel you
Next to me
Close to my body
Warm and wet
Like the wax from the flame
Dance with me
As the flame does
Let your soul drip into mine
Melting into one
Let my fingerprints burn a place
In your mind
In your heart
In your soul
Let the glow from the flame
Accentuate the essence of us
And what we create
What has been created
Our flame
Which goes on burning
With no fear of extinguish

"Ranting and Raving"

I drift into subconscious
And feed this page
From the plate
Of my brain
Filled plenty and full
Plentiful
Playful
Painful
Pieces of portraits
Painted to portray
My past
My colorful
Twisted
Tousled
Tempted
Timing
I think of you
Teasing
The tip of the tongue
Tempting
Between
Thighs
Thigh to thigh
Tasting
Reality
Realizing
The rarity we share
Rough rugged edges to surpass
To surprise yourself
Silly
Safely staying
Sound asleep
Wake up!
What if we
Weren't we
What if
I walked away
Where would you be
What would you do
Why should I stay
I remain
In Love
Letting love and lust
Lure me
Losing my reality
Longing to lose it
To let go
To leave
To go
To grow
I'm granted
Gifts from God
A beautiful baby
Baby boy
I believe
Brace yourself
Because
Your blind
Blinded
Binded
Tied down
Don't deny me
What I do not
Deserve

"Back To Blue"

I'm drowning
Myself
I gasp
And grasp
And fail
To breathe
My perspective
Slowly clouding
My mind fades
To blue
In melancholy
Desperation
I reach out
To find you
Dissolved inside
Your vibrant mind
With answers to
Questions
Locked deep inside
I weigh heavy
On your soul
And it melts
My desire
The sanctity
I swallow
And find my way
Back to
Blue

Untitled

Cheek to cheek
I felt his fingers slowly move up my spine
His breath was heavy
Mine was shallow
His lips melted me
And we fell into one
I could smell his intentions
The akwardness subsided
And I felt alive
I watched him watch me
My body trembled as he lingered
In my soul
I felt him
His heaviness
Released me
I searched in his eyes
I found reality
Aware of my awareness
We released our desires
Slow and subtle
The fantasy plays on
In my heart and mind
A memory
I keep you
Playing
Repeatedly

"Marathon Late Night"

I sit in the dark
Playing sounds
With no reply
I find all these places
And see you
I watch them
Replay
And I pray
The anger inside
Will release me
I have become
The cliche love ballad
The girl who has everything
And is denied
I seek
And find
My emptiness
My black heart
Which is filled
And yet
Not fulfilled
You had everything
Beneath me
Beside me
The me
Which unwound you
Found you
And saw a side of you
You will never see
The you
Who remains
Inside me
Haunts me
And my sleep
And now
Weak
And baffled
I find remorse
In that which surrounds me
A cloudy array
Of less than adequate
Substitute
You selfish fiend
I wish i could open you up
And understand
Yet my pale eyes
Have been deceived
And I believed!!
In so much
And now
How can I
I can't
I won't
And I will not
As long as my tattered heart holds on
I will remain breathless
And afraid
Of that which keeps me sane
Love
What is it
It’s a mediocre farce
And I trusted it
And you
And look at me now
Tied up
With no reality
Spinning
Round and round
Finding no room
For substance
I can question
But why?
Empty handed
And lied to
Your love was something
And mine was so much more
I fear
You failed me
And now...
I have nothing to show
But a reckless abandon
And your coward stare
How could you
Precious to me
And now
To replace you
I must create a memory
A silly thought
A tactless venture
In which
I'll fail
Thank you
For showing me
Disappointment
Is so unkind
For I am told to survive
When all I wish for
Is darkness
I wish to bleed
And sleep
And forget
The love I lost
For lack of imperfection
But grace
And beauty
And incredible emotion
My rage can not
Defend me
I am empty and broken
And in my end
Alone
With you
Nowhere
Out in this world
Without me
And you are just fine
You have completion
And I sit here
Abused
In pieces...
Contemplating
My next
Shallow
Meaningless
Step
Sadly
I will go on
And you will lose track
Of the incredible
Me
But know
I can not cry
My eyes and ears
My heart my mind
Dry
And my soul
On its last
Breath
Slowly dying
Asking me why
But I have no answers
To questions
That have no hope
I could go on
But why?
You've stopped listening
So why is it
I can't run out of things to say...
I'll try goodbye
But you've already gone
And once again
My breath
Wasted...
And so am I