Cafe' Rouge

I once believed
In Love
Letting the heart take the reigns
Leaving the mind
Behind
Giving logic no room to succeed
What wonderful tricks
Time tends to play
What once was all
Or nothing
Is now
"Perhaps"
"We shall see"
And I open myself wide
Yet absolutely
Not
Ever
Emotionally
For if wonders ever cease
I've shyed away
You see
From the hopeless
I've hardened
...
"The key,
You see
Is turnover"
So it is
My eyes will hide behind
This beautiful brain I've become
I turn my back on uncertainties
Setting fire to the past
"Ashes to ashes
Dust to dust"
My love
Measured up
Yet here I am
Floundering
I'm broken
And sadly believe
Unattainable
No glue will fix this mold
The cracks I have formed
Need not be slipped through
When once the heart was my measure
The matter
The reality
Telling myself
What I need to hear
Denying
I'm awake
Underneath it all
But it's heavy
And I'm weak
And I wish to lie
It's far more easy
To live a lie
Then ask for truth