“Expression”
Why can I not get through to you
I speak
And you blink
Does anything sink in?
I scream because you don’t let me in
I repeat
Because you won’t hear me
HEAR ME
I love you
And I’m weary
My mind draws a blank
I am so sick
Of being sick
And alone
With a boyfriend who is MIA
You wanna talk
Let’s talk
And when I shake and shiver
And tremble beneath a beaten blouse
Recognize that
Recognize me
Screaming out
STOP
The world was not built
To tilt and whirl when you say so
And I say
So
Listen to me
You wanna be my caretaker
How do I live with a caretaker
Who has no trust?
Huh?
How does that seen doable
Regain it you say
I have done so little to deserve my punishment
To have my body and pride taken from me
For you to distrust me
For you not to see the one you fell for
And only open your eyes to the weak
The meager minded invalid
I have become
So you leave me
No choice
You walk away saying I am the one who needs to reevaluate
And I am left here
With my words
Unable to express myself
Like me
You shut down with every syllable
My guess is you still shut me down
Reading this
With little regards to my current state
Not remembering my shaky hand
And my wounded head
My heart tampered with
My spirit broken
You choose not to love
The many me’s that are bound to surface
Instead you tell me
To deal with you
When I am me again
Which me is the one you approve of again?
This is how I communicate
Take me
Or have you already left?
…
I am not running away
I am here
Can you see me?
Which one am I now
The one you love
Or the one you have chosen to leave?
Why can I not get through to you
I speak
And you blink
Does anything sink in?
I scream because you don’t let me in
I repeat
Because you won’t hear me
HEAR ME
I love you
And I’m weary
My mind draws a blank
I am so sick
Of being sick
And alone
With a boyfriend who is MIA
You wanna talk
Let’s talk
And when I shake and shiver
And tremble beneath a beaten blouse
Recognize that
Recognize me
Screaming out
STOP
The world was not built
To tilt and whirl when you say so
And I say
So
Listen to me
You wanna be my caretaker
How do I live with a caretaker
Who has no trust?
Huh?
How does that seen doable
Regain it you say
I have done so little to deserve my punishment
To have my body and pride taken from me
For you to distrust me
For you not to see the one you fell for
And only open your eyes to the weak
The meager minded invalid
I have become
So you leave me
No choice
You walk away saying I am the one who needs to reevaluate
And I am left here
With my words
Unable to express myself
Like me
You shut down with every syllable
My guess is you still shut me down
Reading this
With little regards to my current state
Not remembering my shaky hand
And my wounded head
My heart tampered with
My spirit broken
You choose not to love
The many me’s that are bound to surface
Instead you tell me
To deal with you
When I am me again
Which me is the one you approve of again?
This is how I communicate
Take me
Or have you already left?
…
I am not running away
I am here
Can you see me?
Which one am I now
The one you love
Or the one you have chosen to leave?