My Subway Sonata

I moved five steps back
without looking
Willingly
I leapt
Faithlessly unafraid
I swallowed someone else’s pride
Took a deep breath
and have denied my own right to exhale ever since
I weep with reason
But I cannot wash this stain away
I ache with intention
Each stumble and struggle
Is meant to remind me
The reminders are crippling my friends
My broken body screams
Seeking for explanation
Which my heart no longer has the will to rationalize
What’s the point in building bridges
If you have no feet to walk upon them?

My hands are no longer tied ... they are paralyzed