“Existing Within”

Don’t misread
My meaning
To you
You can lie
Only to yourself
For the rest of our world
Knows
They know the you
I create
The beautiful being
You become
Because of me
My eyes will melt you
And maybe you’ll never be mine
But I keep you always
As I lay alone
I can reach at my side and feel you
I can look around me
And find solitude
But I close my eyes
And you are everywhere
You inhabit my skin
My mind
And my essence
I am not alone
No matter
Where I am
You’ll find me
Inside
All you see
All you breathe
There’s me
Finding my way
Creating
Dominating
Devouring
Your existence
Yours truly
No matter
Time
Nor circumstance

“He and Me”

I’m alive
With ideas
Blessed with strength
I open my eyes
And am reminded
I am
Whatever I want to be
My passions ignite
My desire
Or maybe it’s the other way around
Regardless
My fear has subsided
And I am anxious
To venture on
To trust in
The unknown
Never questioning
I’m in love
And I know it
Although I can not show him
He knows
And I hold that close
I get lost in memories
And finally
I can smile
And revel in them
And I believe
Wherever I may go
He will be
I will encounter beauty
And I will swallow it whole
It will live in me
And my light will continue to shine
Though I may be
Millions of miles away
That light will reach him
Keep him warm
The way I should
And on my return
I hope to open my eyes
And see the light in his
Shining back upon me
So be it
If that is the case
Then and only then
Will I revel
In that light
That moment
That intimate
Desired
Reality
Of he and me
For now
I play hide and seek
With my own revelations
The key to unlock me
For me
I seek
And I shall
Find

“I Miss You… Madly”

I miss you
Madly
With my mind
And my mouth
With my heart
And my hands
In my sleep
And in my soul
I miss you
Madly
Fighting
All that is me
All that is real
I cannot find it in me
To deny
You
The biggest part of me
Is empty
I miss you
Madly
I seek no substitute
Because I love
Only you
As I have
As I do
I lose grip
I slip
I fall
And I’m reminded
Your lack of laughter
Is because
It’s only me
And the pain
Is too familiar
I miss you
Madly
My blue eyes
Ache
To find their reflection
In yours
I want to feel
The warmth
Of your skin
Dance against me
Not for another
Ill fated
Finale
But the comfort
And the home
I can’t help
Fight for
The comfort
The home
The reflection
The warmth
The laughter
Your face
Those eyes
I miss you…
Madly…
But I know
It’s all or nothing
Because
You are unwilling to make room
For me
In between

“Playing It Safe”

Shall we play it safe
Pretend
The love that is
Isn’t?
Should I avert my eyes
Stay blinded
By your disbelief
And melancholy manner?
I’m unaware
Your whereabouts
Lost to me
And still
I fight
To hold on
Without reason
My only hope
Is that which
Exists within me
I quench my own
Thirst
When I feel dry
From your denial
I move mountains
When you’ve stolen all my strength
I place the stars
In your grasp
My guess
The heat
The light
My sparkle
My shine
Too intense
Too much…
For your stubborn
Chosen
Solitude
And even still
My world
Wants you
Chooses you
To share
To stare
To sit quietly
To rest gently
To believe in
To be with
And yet
I want for
Words
You may never say