Unspoken

Words like thick rigid glass pierce straight through me
I used to drink you
Wholly
Holy Holy Holy
                      Farce

I attempt an escape into tonight’s rising moon
and recognize a galaxy filled with constellations
better left denied

My skin crawls with omission
When did truth become transparent?
If words are left unspoken
do we then deny action
or how about the lack thereof?
Or better still: the bold and the blatant

Responsible for no one
we take for granted
                                   LOVE
Something I’m beginning to recognize I am the sole defender of

I fight
and claw
while my emotions dance about
Making me the jester
in a court I no longer belong to
     -I bare witness
But the stakes are no longer the same

We can recount our scorecards
deciphering who’s to blame
                      But for what?

I broke down and rebuilt a broken masterpiece
I chose: Us
While you bided your time
you brushed against another’s naked skin
All the while
knowing
you were breaking the broken

A foolish girl behind a fading counter
I awaited your arrival
Ready to turn the page
Willing to go left if you forced my hand
Wanting to go right

Disguised
Unrevealed
Better left unsaid
One step forward
                 Three steps back

We carry on

This beat beneath my chest desires a rhythm
I no longer know if you deserve
The ache, which sweeps over my entirety
has your handy-work attached to its price tag
with a fee of unyielding uncertainty
I cannot fear what is yet to come

They say knowledge is power
                                                Now I know