"Pain"

This pain is not pretty
This pain is not me
I feel empty
And wounded
And melted
By your frozen
Lack of response
Save me
From this
Confusion
Uncover me
And discover
The true meaning
Underneath you
On your insides
I reside
And can’t find my way out
From under your
Tempting stare
Yet
I can’t
Even
Look at you
Without this pain
This numbing
Paralyzing
Cruel
Pain

"Denial"

I wish for
My words
To scatter
You
And your
Pieces
All about
This
Vast existence
I wish
To swallow
You
Whole
In hopes
The pill
Which is you
Helps me to
Forget
I want to
Wake
To an empty
Bed
An empty
Stomach
An empty
Heart
But a fevered
Mind
Which knows
The bigger
Bitter loss
Is not mine
But me
In your
Temperamental hollow heart
Which will
Remain empty
Untouched
Unrevealed
Without my
Thick skin
Resting gently
Upon it
Beyond the
Barricade you built
The façade I found
And inhabited
I created
And still
Creating
I place
The broken heart
In my hands
And the scattered
Pieces of you
And rest
Sleeplessly
Disturbed
And destroyed
Defeated
And you
I deny

"My Truth"

Where in this world
Am I
I’ve lost
Me
I’ve suppressed
And distressed
And I find
Myself
Depressed
Confused
Contorted
And out of sorts
No grasp
On a reality
I fear
Shall never
Reveal its self
So I’m left
Right where
I began
Alive
Yet alone
With these words
Which
Never
Fail me
I depend
On their structure
For my
Strength
To teach me
How to hold on
Let go
Unwind
Fall hard
And fail
As quick as my words
Reach these fingertips
I say truth
No limit
No length
Just honest
Direct
True
Trite
Never in vain
But real
And faithful
Fatal
And forgiving
Yet
Unforgettable
I depend
And believe
In these