The Truth Of It All

I’m spiraling
And spinning here people
Doubt
Confusion
Doubt
Confusion
WALL!
I feel as if I am functioning at 230 miles per hour
Yet I’m here
At a stand still
The ideal is forward
The hope is be headstrong
Move
But which way
When up and down
Back and forth
Side to side
The action of it all
I feel as if
I’m stumbling
And I will fall face first
Into disillusion
Back peddling
Just to catch up
I need a break
I’m broken
And I have broken
I need a break
Yet I’m breaking
Cracking
Coming unwound
I’m fraying on the inside
And the wear is beginning to show
I cannot hide
The outside
Is no longer
The illusion
It once was


I’ve been found out

Split Peas

I’m perhaps an emotional monopoly
What with this chosen rawness
The weight of our world
Is not as heavy as it may seem
God bless sincerity
Smiles
The way a dim-lit room
Captivates
The essentials
Those who roam
Lost
Unknown
To the ideals
We have built
Our Kingdom upon
Let them be
Mistaken
My cares are my own
As am I
And you
Well…
Definition
I leave it to those
Who know not
Who they are

Late Night Exchange

You’re … aching
Aren’t you
I’ve known
Where you are
In a world
Created
Existing
Within an ideal
Someplace sacred
Only you can be
Let some light shine in
The world has a deceiving shell
Reality isn’t as dark
As your melancholy mentality
Creation
Set out to provide positive stimuli
And circling
Beneath the surface
Is the raw
The rare
The real
Relax your mind
Realize
Beyond the shadows
Beyond the brain-waves
The heartstrings
Contemplation
That is the hardest route to face alone
Open your eyes
Give the world a chance
To read your soul
To know your secrets
And feed on your dreams

Doing The Math

There are those who know
And the others are left with
The unknown
I often wonder
Am I to be divided like this
I only have one heart
One mind
One body
However
I often question:
Is there more to me
Than me?
If in fact I divided my senses
Would there be a complementing portion
For each person I adore
Or have adored
Or will adore

I know love
She has embraced me
Held me hostage
Wiped away
Tears
And smiles
And shown me
Happiness
Introduced me to
Denial
Asked of me
That in which
I never would have
Without her

Life
Goes
On
Piecing myself together
Again
Connecting my past
With my present
Keeping an eye on
My future
So
It
Goes
My door is awaiting
Her familiar knocking
Followed by heavy breathing
Hunger
Satisfaction
Longing
Inspiration
Temper
Rage
Withdrawal
Content
And let’s not forget
The familiar
Division