“Resonance”

I choke
I try to erase
But you
You’re in me
I sulk through
Knee deep
In all the bullshit
That was
Us
I open my eyes to all
We weren’t
And yet everything I believed
We might have been
And I contemplate
And manipulate
And penetrate
My meager heart
Her strength
Her fight
Her irreversible lack of trust
I question
Love
Reason
Belief
You had me
And let me go
I cannot chastise you
For your lack of love
But I can remind you
How you shook my existence
Planted your roots
Deep in my soul
Helped me lose myself
In you
Made a home
And abandoned
It
And me
So now I look ahead
And it hurts
To not feel
The weight
Of your beautiful stare
For you were long gone
Far before
I ever noticed
And long after
I ever asked
Why?