Penetration

I seek penetration
I require more than this numbness
I cannot expect anything
From anyone
Aside from myself
Yet I crave
Consistency
Romance
And Passion
To create
The deepest part of my reality
I want to free-fall
And want not
I need the senselessness to subside
And my lucid sense of self
To captivate
And penetrate
Your world
I want to blend
And bend
And build
And burn
Inside
With you
For you
As I do
Yet
Words
They fall short
Allow me to overcompensate
For I have no fear of failure
For each time we dance
Like this
I understand
Two worlds collide
Coincide
Intertwine
My numbness melts
In the madness of your grip
I can no longer question
The conviction
Which plainly is

Surprise Endings

So many uncertainties
And insincerities
Along the path of life
At each fork
At each crossroad
With every answer
A million questions arise
Yet beauty
In anything
Lies ever present
Underneath it all
Without questions
We would never seek
And isn't the search
What keeps us alive?
The pure
Uncomplicated
Uncompromising
Sane existence
Is a farce
A fantasy for some
A bland
Benign
Atrocity
To others
Like me
In youth I created
"Bigger than"
Scenarios
Tragedies
Miseries
When really life would lead me
Towards those premature
Creations
Yet
It is only now
I care to appreciate
My ever present
Complication
In a world
Which if all were certain
My words
My emotions
My truth
My life
Would be inconsequential
And that
Would be insincere
And naturally
Tragic...

Silent Surrender

An elevated existence of haze
What once was white
Slowly fades to violet
I'm thrown into a world of reminders
Memories
Shadows
I dance
Among the stillness
And my silence
Is only broken
By the slamming
Sea to shore
Sure of nothing
And all
All at once
Hurdling the thin line
Then and now
Catapulting
What once was
And what really is
Choosing to believe
What right is
The right
Is mine
And I have chosen

Atlantic Ideals

There's something about this place
Perhaps it's the air
Perhaps it's the sea
Perhaps the Atlantic seeps in through my skin
Invading my veins
Bombarding my life line
Reminding me of...
Carolina beaches
European paradise
Still nights
Peaceful illusion
Self-satisfaction
All the elements
My world
My truths
My Pacific side
Cherishes
For stillness
And peace
Escapes me
On the other side
Of this life

In Flight

I'm extended
Above and beyond
Any and all
I've invaded
I drift
Amongst the clouds
Inhabiting darkness
I am solitude
My time is my own
And while others surround me
The air I'm breathing
Is mine
Alone
I leave behind
A world in which
Concern and consequence
Weigh so heavy
My heart has to beat triple time
To conference with my mind
And while I wish
One coexisted with the other
The heart pushes
The mind pulls
My body breaks
And I'm left
Extended
Juggling
Performing the minor miracles
Too few choose to see