Macaroni and Cheeze

Perhaps I should
Disassemble my heart
And show you
Only
The outline
Read between
My lines
My heart
Has broken
40 billion times
I’ve tried so hard
To recreate
Myself
Stronger
Solid
More bold
Than every other time
Yet here I am
My heavy breathing
Goes far beyond
The physical
I will not be melancholy
For as soon as I open
It will seep in to
The 40 billion cracks
Before you
And I have not the will
However
The want
Explodes
Within
Every open mouthed kiss
Every time I rest
Upon your beating chest
I am consumed
With stillness
And cannot
Deny
You
And still
Here I am
Aching
Questioning my pain
Not it’s worth
But it’s place of conception