Seconds

What it must feel like
To get it right the first time
No second guessing
Jumping in
Head first
No questions asked
No reservations
A quick gut check
Then a plunge
I see no coward
When I face my reflection
Yet I fall short
Finding the answers
Long after time has run out
Coincidence
This is not the first time
I’d like to believe it’s the last
But I know better
The key was mine
But I turned my back
The unveiling revealed
Long after the crowd
Turned in
How can I blame you for breathing?
No longer holding your breath
Waiting for me
No longer made sense
With all my love
And in all the glory
My heart reconciled with my mind
Just in time
For you to forget
What it was you once wanted

A Revolution Ago

A seemingly strange chain of events
The earth quaked
The sky fell
My body bled
I embrace the unchanged
Yet fear
Is no component

I’m lying still
Waiting for the ax to drop
For my world to spin
My heart to cease
The beat to bellow
Low and long
One final time

The drive
The ambition
The courage
The reminder
When your voice
Grows cold
All in due time
You’ll be numb
I’ll be weightless
Wondering why time plays tricks
All the while claiming ally

A revolution ago
I roamed alone
Captivated
Breath taken
Answering every question
On my own
In a world
Where time was at a stand still
And my mind
Was mine

I crave that freedom
I am anxious
To be
Inspired

Yet
I feel diseased
Incomplete
Comatose
Paralyzed
Inhibited
By memories of “might have been”
When giving all
Left me with nothing
When being someone’s something
Suddenly sets precedent
When the catch 22 of it all
Seems to be
Without someone
There is nothing

Roaming alone
Is empty
Without you
I am aimless
Release me once again
Let inspiration be mine
Free me
Let your love divide me
Take hold
Lose control
Reach deep
Send me every which way
Let my heart dance
My body sway
Be my instruction
Heal me