"Numbness"

You paralyzed me my friend
Your standards were high
And my arrival was
A struggle I still face
Yet the catapult
From the then
To now
Sends me
Shivering
Numb
Dull
Nullified
My release...
What release?
I turn my cheek
I shy away
For numbness
I can stand
However
Anything less than
Is a lie
You played a part
You wrote me a fairytale
You released me
What now though?
Denial is my familiarity
I no longer seek solitude
For bridges may burn
And my memories may fade
But breath in this body
Means
The light of your love
Burns so blue
It numbs me

"Gripping and Clinging"

My grip is tight
Yet my will is weak
And how must I build
When my foundation
Is faulty
Like my thoughts
I cannot provide
A means to an end
My eyes are wide open
While my grip is tight
My heart
Belongs to a memory
I live
And breathe
Beneath
A past
So rich
Yet compromised
I've resigned to live this lie
Alone
Surrounded with intention
My tale
Unravels on
I manage to betray
Lingering
Clinging
Unable to recognize
The real and the raw
Relying on nothing
And never knowing
If the other shoe will drop
No grand illusions
I carry on
Suseptable to nothing
Affected
Only
By the Precious one